Regrets over holiday weekend eating?Apr 05, 2021
Can we talk about Easter candy for a minute? I wanted to share my Easter with you via a before and after story in case you're full of regret over Easter eating and can relate to the first story.
Although, if you are feeling full of regret this morning over what you ate, first and foremost - let it go. Your worth as a human is not determined by what or how much you eat - nor is it determined by how much weight you gain. No matter what you eat or don't eat, you don't have to "fix it" or "make up for it" today - in fact, trying to is a huge part of what drives the cycle of always trying to start over.
Anyway, here's how Easter used to go for me:
Buy and eat a dozen bags of Easter candy before Easter even arrived + buy my own stash for Easter weekend so I wouldn't eat all my daughter's on her
Get up, promise I wasn't going to eat myself sick while shoving candy in my mouth
Shove candy in my mouth while my daughter went through her Easter basket + make her hide all her candy when she went through it. Because if it wasn't hidden, I'd eat it all
Skip eating breakfast because my stomach was upset from eating a pound of candy for breakfast BUT keep shoving candy in my mouth all morning
Argue with myself with every piece I put in my mouth. "THIS is the LAST piece I'm going to eat!" I'd promise - while continuing to just eat piece after piece all-day, crapping on myself the entire time and promising to "get back on track tomorrow"
Not eat lunch because - candy! - then stuff myself even sicker on Easter dinner
Go to bed feeling like absolute garbage and throwing up in my mouth I was so full before waking up with a food hangover from how much candy I ate
That was how basically every holiday went for most of my adult life and frankly, it was awful.
It was awful because of how it made me physically feel but the way it made me feel emotionally, to be that controlled by food, was just as bad or maybe even worse. Not to mention beyond exhausting.
Let's look at yesterday in comparison:
I didn't have a single bag of Easter candy in the weeks up to Easter because I just didn't think or care about it (although I did have a couple cream eggs when they first came out, I'm not a complete robot 😊)
I got up, got my daughter's basket ready (she's almost 21 but yes, she still gets Easter baskets) and then made breakfast
I watched her go through her Easter basket when she got here, made lunch, relaxed for the afternoon, ate dinner and basically just had a great day.
I never thought about candy, never cared about candy. In fact, Shae offered to share hers and I legitimately didn't want it. No promising to "start over tomorrow", no arguing in my head over what I should or shouldn't eat, no regrets, no feeling sick - no needing her to hide hers.
It was a GLORIOUS day and I crawled into bed smiling.
And that's life now - even on holidays! *cue the heavens opening and angels singing
Just living and eating -- actually wanting to eat in ways that make me feel good. I can't even express how glorious it is.
The difference is that now, nothing is ever off-limits. The before story was largely driven, at least in part, by my fear of "bad" foods and constant attempts to "be good" and not have any.
I don't care about candy anymore because I allow myself to eat as much of it as I want, anytime I want. I stopped always trying to restrict it so I could change the reasons I was always drawn to eating so much of it.
For more on why trying to force ourselves to stop eating the "bad things" (like Easter candy) is significantly less healthy than just allowing ourselves to have whatever we want, check out my most recent podcast episode:
I say all that because YOU can have this too. With everything in me, I KNOW that you can have this too.
You CAN break the cycle of obsession, control, suffering and never-ending feelings of failure.
You CAN experience the peace and joy of living through holidays without eating yourself sick - or extraordinary attempts to "be good" and "control yourself" out of fear of eating yourself sick.
There's not a single doubt in my mind that my process can change everything for anyone. It is NEVER too late and no one is EVER hopeless.
If you're ready for the forever kind of shifts that come from uncovering and changing your whys, pre-registration for the next round of my CEA opened for my waitlist last week and public registration will reopen this week.
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